I want to run To disappear Withdraw
Feel nothing
i want to stop
Give in
Give up
Sleep forever. I am alone in my thoughts
In my heart
Isolated
Disconnected
So much outside fear and hatred
Helpless to change
To connect
To heal.
I’m tired.
So tired.
Burnt out.
Empty
I cannot do this alone
No one can
Too hard
Too alone
I need support
A loving connection.
Partnership
Understanding
Instead, I feel alone
With a broken heart
dismissed withdrawn
I’m not enough to chase over high walls to find not enough to knock down every door until I am found not enough for another to put their own pain aside to see mine not enough
So I give instead.
All the love that I can
To anyone who needs it.
To feel purpose and give me the desire to live and breathe.
But sometimes the pain in my heart is too much to bear.
And the giving to others is not enough.
And I am tired.
And I find myself needing.
Only, when I need, I am called “negative”.
So I shut down
Withdraw.
And I am alone again.
So I breathe.
All the love that I can.
All the gratitude that I feel for life’s beauty.
And I remember.
I remember that being alone is an old story.
For I am not alone. I am deeply loved.
I am profoundly cared for.
And my heart opens.
Like a gentle flower it blooms.
And I breathe more deeply.
And I feel connected to something so much greater.
My heart then expands.
And I know that I am connected to the heart of the universe.
I know that my heart aligns with other hearts.
I know that I am cherished.
And I feel my heart beat.
I am whole.
I am all one.
We are all one.
